Just keeping you updated, I’ve been working on things (Work from all classes) till 8:00 at night. Talk about tiring..!

Music to me is the charger for the soul, mind, and body. When you’re out of energy, you listen to music to motivate you. When you’re out of ideas, you listen to music to inspire you. And when your feeling down, you listen to music to relate to you. In all honesty, without music we’d feel so alone. Music tells us in a world of loneliness and darkness and plain cruelty that it’s okay to be yourself. That someone out there knows how you feel. Music is my life, and my life is an eternal song, inspiring, motivating, and relating to many who need it.

We should have closed school today… It’s chaos out there!

“A Girl’s Imagination”

Counting problems inside your head

(1…2…3…4)

Stressing about something unsaid

(3…2…1…0)

Love’s hidden in your head as you lay on the ground

(2…4…6…8)

What’s inside your mind makes a lovely sound…~

(La~La~La~La~)

…

Enter your mind

(Your mind)

And let the imagination flow

Don’t decline

(Decline)

Let your people know-

That everyone’s got creativity

And everyone can be happy

If they enter their mind

And let their colors out from inside~

(Instrumental)

Look all around…

(Around)

The world is black and white-and boring

Look at their eyes

(Their eyes)

Just no color inside them

Try to speak up

(Speak up)

And spread your colors to them

Let there be light

(Be Light)

Let them make their own world

Let it multiply

(multiply)

Create the world to be happy!

(Happy…

Happy…

…Happy…)

…

Enter your mind

(Your mind)

And let the imagination flow

Don’t decline

(Decline)

Let your people know-

That everyone’s got creativity

And everyone can be happy

If they enter their mind

And let their colors out from inside~

…

…No matter where you go…

…Your problems always show…

….And if you wake up tonight…

You may use the light to end this fight..!

…

Enter your mind

(Your mind)

And let the imagination flow

Don’t decline

(Decline)

Let your people know-

That everyone’s got creativity

And everyone can be happy

If they enter their mind

And let their colors out from inside~

–

Enter your mind

(Your mind)

And let the imagination flow

Don’t decline

(Decline)

Let your people know-

That everyone’s got creativity

And everyone can be happy

If they enter their mind

And let their colors out from inside~

(Colors out inside)

Let their colors out inside…

(inside…)

Don’t you dare decline!

(Don’t decline)

You need your colors……

(Your colors…)

~

Stop and enter your mind tonight

And let those colors out from inside..!

“Smile like nothing’s going on…”

Smile, smile now

Everything’s okay

Smile, smile

You’ll see the sun someday

Smile, smile now

Like nothing’s wrong

Smile, smile

Your life is such a sad song

You are walking through the hallways

You feel your end is near

Planning your death

And it’s now all too clear

Living your life

You are on your own

Repeating the same old lies

You are so alone

In your denial

You aren’t aware

Your hope and your strength

Is always there-

Fake a smile-

(No one’s looking at your eyes)

Say you’re fine

(No one sees the pain inside)

Find the time

(Searching for your innocence)

Try; seek inside

(Your past clearing in the mist)

-instrumental-

Love is so strong…

It should keep you alive

But get too close

That fire burning inside-

Will burn you alive!

Ba bum~Ba bum

That deadly heart beat

You’re screaming inside

The tragedy repeats

Creating your fantasies

In black and white

The fighting’s gone wrong

You’ve lost the light

…Now that you see

You can fake a smile again

Faking the pain- zero

Out of one to ten…

~~~

Fake a smile-

(No one’s looking at your eyes)

Say you’re fine

(No one sees the pain inside)

Find the time

(Searching for your innocence)

Try; seek inside

(Your past clearing in the mist)

Fake a smile-

(No one’s looking at your eyes)

Say you’re fine

(No one sees the pain inside)

Learn to not feel

(Numb the pain, the emptiness)

Find something real

(Everything’s fake, nothing’s here)

–

Nothing… is here…

Nothing…

Just black… around me…

(Just black around me)

Nothing here…

No one here…

I’m only here…

Can you come near?

…I’m so alone…

(So alone)

Please help me now…

(please help me now)

Please… help me…

(Help… me)

I’m so… weak

(So… weak)

So weak…

(So weak…)

So… weak…

(So weak)

So…. weak!

(So… weak!)

So WEAK!

(So WEAK!)

So… weak…

(So……. weak…)

…

So…..WEAK!

…

I’ll try to be strong again!

…

~~~

…

Fake a smile-

(No one’s looking at your eyes)

Say you’re fine

(No one sees the pain inside)

Find the time

(Searching for your innocence)

Try; seek inside

(Your past clearing in the mist)

Say you’re fine

(You’re perfectly fine)

Fake a smile

(No one notices at all)

It’s quite alright today

(You’re endure it all, okay?)

You’ll see the sun someday

Say your words

(I’m so sorry I’ve given in)

Break the birds

(Broken wings one by one)

But try not to die today… okay?

So keep staying strong

You belong…-

In this world, okay..?

–

Dry your eyes

Laugh; no cries

The day will come, you say…

It’ll come you say…

You’ll continue to fight you say…

You’re staying strong

Please keep staying strong

In someone’s arms you’ll belong

Please…

Keep staying…

Strong…

I’m chained to the floor

Reaching to everything I adore

But all the colors fade away

The minute I close the door

And the endless fight

Had started one night

And it didn’t go away

It’s still here, even during the day

And the yells and the screams

And the nightmares replacing dreams

And the blood that should flow red

Turns to black as I am dead

And I walk this road alone

Holding hands to someone in a different zone

And I notice we aren’t the same

Same place, different board game

It’s just another lonely day

But soon the pain will go away

Come and take my fragile hand

Let’s make a castle out of sand

Pray the waves wont fade it away

Let’s live again, another day.

I’m so alone today… I need someone’s company 🙁

I made my first plushies yesterday after school and it took 7 hours! Someday I’ll put up pictures of them since I only have a picture of the two cuties on my phone. One is purple, which I made for my boyfriend. The other is pink and it’s for me. I left my pink one at home but I brought my purple one with me. I’ll be carrying it around so if you want to see it, ask me! These plushies are called Dangos and they’re from the anime Clannad. I made them both completely by myself and they turned out amazing. I might make mini ones for my friends 😀

Down below is a picture I showed in a different post. These are what Dangos are-

I chose the author Lewis Carol. I think this project will be hard but… I’ll try my best..!

Let the journey down the rabbit hole begin 😀

So I finished the “rough draft” of my essay and showed it to my mom while telling her it was mine and she said that I did really go on it. Then, when I showed my uncle, I failed to tell him it was mine until the end and he was surprised. He told me it look like it was actually in a magazine of some sort. He didn’t believe I wrote it, word by word he quoted- “This isn’t something made by a FIFTEEN year old!” So yeah, I’m pretty sure he was impressed by it. He thinks I’ll get a high score on my grade… Good luck to me because I’m turning in my final draft once it’s finished today~!